The Indecisive Decision of Life

Every day seems to be a battle of the heartedmind between right and wrong, good and bad, yes or no, should I or shouldn't I? The human conditioning to think rather than feel, speed up rather than slow down and talk rather than listen, drives us to the point of agony over every decision we make. It seems tragic that by the time it all ends, most of us look back and say "I wish" or " I should have." While every single decision we make should be a conscious one, we should also be conscious of the fact that each decision we make will not alter the course of the universe as a whole, but merely alter the course of OUR universe, the one that we create in our minds. When we find ourselves in those situations in which the walls are closing in, the situations that cause anxiety, depression and fear, I think it is important to keep a lucid outlook on the universe as a whole, and try to understand that although it may feel like our entire temple is collapsing, the rest of the world is moving, striving, evolving and still providing us the strength and love to do the same, and if a decision is made sincerely with the best possible intention behind it, then right or wrong the universe will continue to hold your temple together. Continue to make the conscious decision to love instead of hate and realize that although their will always be pain, their will also always be bliss, and whichever we decide on, the universe will continue with or without us. L O V E.

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Back Pedaling

It is difficult to not get caught up in the life cycle of 1 step forward, 2 steps back. Often, just when I feel my best, or feel as if I am making enormous progress, old habits, or demons if you may, come back to remind me of exactly who I am trying to forget. Often this leads to my ego becoming judgmental, pointing it's perfect finger at my not so perfect human existence, telling me that I'm not worth it. After enough of this, you begin to wonder just what exactly it is you hope to be, or the person you hope to become. One of the hardest things to do is change, for obvious reasons such as fear and anxiety and being unassured, but also I think the underlying feeling of not wanting to take responsibility for the better person you might become for the fear of then having to live up to those expectations. It's hard to grow, it's scary to learn about who you REALLY are, and it's painful to deal with that often sinister thing called the mind. I think if we remind ourselves that for every step we take forward it's alright then to take a minute or a day or a year to enjoy where that step has taken us before moving on, then maybe all those feelings will slowly dissipate. Then when we are ready we can take another step forward instead of two steps back. L O V E.

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The Great Discovery

When you start to discover things, isn't your first inclination always one of wanting to share your new found treasure? The spiritual search brings about such wonderful discoveries that you start to question whether or not they are actually real. Are you really transforming to a more well balanced being? Are you really experiencing peace more than unrest? Then along with those questions come the curious thoughts of "Is anybody going to understand what I'm going through?" or "Will people think that I am just some out of touch dreamer, or a weirdo who's unable to deal with reality?" Truth is that once you start to make these discoveries than reality itself begins to change, and you start to see the only reality, the one that is staring you in the face, the one that is not a second behind or a second ahead, the reality that is right now. Of course this has all been taught before, discovered by others and handed down through centuries of wisdom, but the beauty of these treasures is that for each of us they are different, and each of us can begin our search for them when we so desire. Then when we finally start to come across our prized possessions of inner peace and outer love, we can put them out there for others to discover. EaSy.

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